sAd n sOrRy

ma soul's darkness overflowin...
ma hatred to tht hood is flashn..

Losin d hold on ma soul...
m tearn apart ma rspct
tearn ma faith fo the misin node of my life's tresur..
standin untold...
untold to the fact tht I look lik satan now...
untold abt the flashn scars of ma life...,

Wanna liv fo gud
wanna liv to rst wid ma hood..
bt ma fight fo ma excistence is flshn mo black ...
flashn mor as M passing ths savage land..,

N now i wonder..
wonder how difficult it is to say I CARE...
how difficult to mak yer mate undstnd...
how difficult to beg fo life...
beg whn u hav lost your excistence..,

I wanna slew maslf..
slew to bleed...
wanna hav the pleasur of dyin slowly
pleasur of cryin whn u r DYIN SLOWLY..
pleasur of cursin ur doings whn u seeing blured...
seeing blured ma soul.... standing nxt to me..
seeing blured the way to the hell's door..
whr satan is waitin...,

I wanna shout...
shout to prove m right
but its me wid whom i hav to fight...
m confusin ma mind wid fact of wus wrng n right
m confusin ma mind to choose the right way of life...,

N I guess now I hav to prov maslf rit
bt fo tht I hav snatched othrs pride...
n m ready to paybak...,

M havin a hope now..
hope i will fight bak wid ma blak side
hope that I will SURVIVE
Survive with the tru color of ma life...!