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I guess m loosin control of ma' emotions...
wot m feelin is I guess not in excistence..,
Try to tak care of' ma' life...
But evn ma' life is fallin on me lik a dark night's high tide..,

M really wonderin how to cry n smil at the same time..
really need to learn how to cry frm ma' heart...
cuz I know he cries out loud whn m sleepin..
Sleepin in thos dark street of glared world..,

M not askin for a hug frm u..
but sumtim a touch of lov..whn m lost will lead me thru..
m tired of walkin in this jungle wid ma head fallin on the grnd..
n they thot m ashamed of ma' scary face..,

M really wonderin wot shud i do...
but m sure this way i wont b abl to lead ne1 of u..
m sorry.... if i hav done sumthin wrong...
but plz. dun tell me ma' excistence is a vain..,

m tired of lookin smilin faces...
really wanna c sum1 of ma' hood..
feels lik ma' inside is burnin..
n wot ol is remainin is ashes of ma' soul..,

M not sayin u ol r bad...
but me not being a member of yer hood makes me feel sad...
i'll feel ok if u'll tell me m not..
not a soul of yer smilin pot..,

widout u I cant read the nxt chapter..
but me bein wid u 'ol makes yer life dithered..
sumtim i jus hate the feelin of lov...
but m wanderin in the dark to search the lov..,

m tired of makin 'em understnd ma' sorrows..
but whn I vent 'em I feel lik they r tired..
but trst me I only tell 'em 'cuz this vessel is filled..
filled completly n now ma' hate for ma' slf is ovrflowin..,

May be m not trained gud to express ma' feeelings..
cuz ma' life's spent trstin ma' wrng instincts..
not tryin to mak ne1 understand...
understand that how it feels whn these wounds pain..,

m not angry with u..
its jus ma' voice which is low...
Low 'cuz ma' tounge is paralised sumtim
..........jus to tell u 'ol...how much I lov