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I guess m loosin control of ma' emotions...
wot m feelin is I guess not in excistence..,
Try to tak care of' ma' life...
But evn ma' life is fallin on me lik a dark night's high tide..,

M really wonderin how to cry n smil at the same time..
really need to learn how to cry frm ma' heart...
cuz I know he cries out loud whn m sleepin..
Sleepin in thos dark street of glared world..,

M not askin for a hug frm u..
but sumtim a touch of lov..whn m lost will lead me thru..
m tired of walkin in this jungle wid ma head fallin on the grnd..
n they thot m ashamed of ma' scary face..,

M really wonderin wot shud i do...
but m sure this way i wont b abl to lead ne1 of u..
m sorry.... if i hav done sumthin wrong...
but plz. dun tell me ma' excistence is a vain..,

m tired of lookin smilin faces...
really wanna c sum1 of ma' hood..
feels lik ma' inside is burnin..
n wot ol is remainin is ashes of ma' soul..,

M not sayin u ol r bad...
but me not being a member of yer hood makes me feel sad...
i'll feel ok if u'll tell me m not..
not a soul of yer smilin pot..,

widout u I cant read the nxt chapter..
but me bein wid u 'ol makes yer life dithered..
sumtim i jus hate the feelin of lov...
but m wanderin in the dark to search the lov..,

m tired of makin 'em understnd ma' sorrows..
but whn I vent 'em I feel lik they r tired..
but trst me I only tell 'em 'cuz this vessel is filled..
filled completly n now ma' hate for ma' slf is ovrflowin..,

May be m not trained gud to express ma' feeelings..
cuz ma' life's spent trstin ma' wrng instincts..
not tryin to mak ne1 understand...
understand that how it feels whn these wounds pain..,

m not angry with u..
its jus ma' voice which is low...
Low 'cuz ma' tounge is paralised sumtim
..........jus to tell u 'ol...how much I lov

----Disappointed Eyes----

M nt sure of the day whn I survived
Survived frm the scum of my mind...
It took me far frm the race...
Far frm the place whr I was searching my trace..,

I was bleedin out with the sorrow of ma' dark past..
The past which m scared to reveal...
Reveal to the flowers of ages...
Reveal the truth to the fragrance of ma' floatin ashes..,

The day whn I had a taste of a nu' bloom...
I thot I lost the grip on ma' steady hood...
M standin under the shelter of ma' dreams..
The shelter whichz standin on the pillar of esteem...
Esteem which gives me strength day by day..
but scares ma night makin me feel lik a pray..,

M nt sure which way to go...
as today I felt i dun hav much tim to flow...
I wan to dilute ma' soul
Dilute in the potion of lov...
But to hav it, m drinkin the liquor of odium...,

Just wan to com closer to u...
but dun wan to scare u
scare u with ma' scars...
Scars which r marked by the hands of slayer...
M scared to tell u who I m..
M scared to accept the u as ma' frnd.......

I dun wan u to trust these disappointed eyes...
But m lost n hungry for the lov..
Lov whch made ma' soul...
Lov whch made me believe...
Believe tht thr I hav sum1 to acknowledge...
Acknoledge the sinister script of ma' life...
But scared tht reader might lie...
The true resn of the smile.............

|--FaKe TrUtH--|

The day when I came...
along came the black....
The color who hated me..
The color who tortured me...
But was faithfull enough to be wid me..,

I spended years to search the Truth..
Truth of ma' excistence..
Truth of ma' persistence..,

But more n more I searched,
I had a feelin of hate..
made me feel lik m d satan's pray..
The Satan was Truth..
Truth who lied ma dreams..
Truth who faked the real me..,

Now m left wid jus me..
Trustin the reality of lie..
Trustin the reality of my damned life..
But still strong enough to face there faked emotions n smile..,

Yes thtz the Truth...
Truth tht I dun wanna run 2day..
Truth tht I m livin in this jungle of True Lies..
Truth tht my questions are now gettin steped over by me..
Truth tht my soul is hurt...,

Now i jus wanna sit n watch..
Watch these puppets of jungle to act in the theatre of Life...
......act n fake the reality of the excistence..,
Let me sit peacefully
Let the Nomad rest calmly.....